Time Changes Everything

So, today I was looking through some of my old journals and I found this entry.  Honestly, it's hilarious.  I am amazed by how much one's state of mind can change in just little under a year.  The girl who wrote this entry was yearning for love "right now"...and the girl who is writing this blog is happily single.  I guess that ,since then, I've actually developed some patience.  God is good.  And whenever He's ready to send that special someone my way, I'll be ready.  But in the meantime, why shouldn't I enjoy the time I have to myself.  I am young and free and excited about life.

Dear God,

I feel weird inside...conflicted almost. Here is this great guy. He makes me laugh and has this uncanny way of getting me to open up to him. You know that opening up to anyone, let alone to a guy (you know my trust issues too), is hard for me to do. But I feel like I can be myself around this one. So, you might think this next question is weird. I want to let myself be happy, but... WHY HIM AND WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES IN MY LIFE?

In three weeks, I will leave GVSU to never come back. I may never see this guy again. This me who can't get him out of my head...who gets giddy inside after talking to him...who feels confused when I haven't talked to him...what am I supposed to do for her? I want to know where this would go if I could stay, but I'm afraid I'll never get to find out.

I'm afraid that if I continue to keep feeling as I do right now that I'll get hurt. With only three weeks left, is getting hurt worth it?

If you could let me in on your plan that would be great. I hope that there is a lesson that comes of all this or that maybe you still have something in the cards that I haven't thought of yet. May I have patience and faith.

I just want be...happy.

Love, Kiley

 There was a lesson: DON'T FRET, JUST WAIT!


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