Time Changes Everything

So, today I was looking through some of my old journals and I found this entry.  Honestly, it's hilarious.  I am amazed by how much one's state of mind can change in just little under a year.  The girl who wrote this entry was yearning for love "right now"...and the girl who is writing this blog is happily single.  I guess that ,since then, I've actually developed some patience.  God is good.  And whenever He's ready to send that special someone my way, I'll be ready.  But in the meantime, why shouldn't I enjoy the time I have to myself.  I am young and free and excited about life.

Dear God,

I feel weird inside...conflicted almost. Here is this great guy. He makes me laugh and has this uncanny way of getting me to open up to him. You know that opening up to anyone, let alone to a guy (you know my trust issues too), is hard for me to do. But I feel like I can be myself around this one. So, you might think this next question is weird. I want to let myself be happy, but... WHY HIM AND WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES IN MY LIFE?

In three weeks, I will leave GVSU to never come back. I may never see this guy again. This me who can't get him out of my head...who gets giddy inside after talking to him...who feels confused when I haven't talked to him...what am I supposed to do for her? I want to know where this would go if I could stay, but I'm afraid I'll never get to find out.

I'm afraid that if I continue to keep feeling as I do right now that I'll get hurt. With only three weeks left, is getting hurt worth it?

If you could let me in on your plan that would be great. I hope that there is a lesson that comes of all this or that maybe you still have something in the cards that I haven't thought of yet. May I have patience and faith.

I just want be...happy.

Love, Kiley

 There was a lesson: DON'T FRET, JUST WAIT!


:)

Land Ho!

This is my first attempt at writing poetry in over three years:

Words were my anchor.
Though in a sea of worry,
I was grounded. STRONG!

Now all is lost.
Where the wind does blow,
this ship must go. GONE!

I showed this to my sister earlier and she said it was a good start. Kelsey knows my poetry better than I do; so, I value her opinion a lot. She has pretty much every poem memorized...mostly because she used to sneak into my journal and copy whatever poem I wrote that day down in her own. She still has those poems and looks at them regularly. I on the other hand avoid them like a plague. But I'm determined not to anymore. Land Ho!
 

Hot FM New Years Party 2010-11 (Grand Rapids!)

For New Years Eve, me and some friends (Kelsey, Shanin, and Michele) went to Grand Rapids for the Hot FM New Years Party.

Getting there was a trip and a half.  First my breaks started leaking break fluid and so stopped working.  Luckily, though, we were close enough to home at that point for my dad to fix them.  Then once we got on our way again, one of the tires went flat.  Someone was nice enough to stop to help us change the tire.  THANKS GUY IN THE CLEAN NEW KHAKIS!

We almost decided to turn around and head back, but thankfully we didn't.  Otherwise, we would have missed one rocking new year.

Good Charlotte headlined and they were awesome.  Also playing were We the Kings, Runner Runner, Frankie Ballard (Michele and I stood in line like an hour or more to get his autograph) and Kaci Battaglia.

Below is a video of Good Charlotte's "Like It's Her Birthday." 
  

  

If you've ever seen Rosa Park Square, you know that it's not that big.  Well, on New Year's Eve, over 40,000 people packed in there to see the concerts and ball drop.  Michele, Kels, Shanin, and I were rather close to the stage.

Overall, it was a great experience.  Next year should be even better.