You Know the Destination...

Dear God,

You have such big plans for me. I know this...but sometimes I wonder what those plans are.  Today I am feeling a bit lost. So, of course, I am turning to you.  I just pray that you give me direction. Grant me the courage and patience to turn myself completely over to you.  You are great and just and gracious...and I just stand in awe of you.

Love, Ki

Who ya gonna call?

GHOSTBUSTERS!!! It's Halloween folks. How better to celebrate than with an 80's classic?

Ears Open, No Sound

After Mom first died, I used to go down to the cemetery after school and sit there for hours.  I would talk to her and imagine that she was answering me back.  I miss the sound of her voice. It was reassuring and comforting and...only hers.

Sometimes I still go to the cemetery to visit her.  I still sit there for hours talking to her...but I no longer imagine that she is answering me back.  Honestly, I cannot remember what her voice sounded like as well anymore.

The silence is deafening.

Pretty Boy Rock!

Who knew that a group of guys could do "Pretty Girl Rock"  better than Keri Hilson? Well, Parachute did. Their acoustic cover blows the original completely out of the water.  Let's hear it for the boys!

Let's Do theTime Warp

Last weekend I went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show with some friends. It was an altogether interesting experience.  People really get into that movie (as demonstrated by call outs and the random throwing of objects). In one scene, it was raining and people came around to spray the audience with squirt guns.

One my favorite scenes was the Time Warp dance. I couldn't find the original online, but here is the Glee (yes, Glee) version. Enjoy!

Let's Watch the Muppets

Student Nurse Turned Cheerleader

Be assertive! Be, be assertive!

This week was my first official week of clinicals (i.e. I actually got to work with patients). It went...okay, it just went.  Right now I am tired and stressed and very happy that the week is almost over. For a while there, I felt truly discouraged.  I think that this is how most student nurses feel after their first real experience in the big bad shark tank of healthcare.

What have I learned so far? Firstly, to be assertive.  The only person with something at stake in my education is myself.  If I want to gain new knowledge, ultimately, it is my responsibility to seize opportunities.

As of now, I am becoming my own cheerleader.  Next week is going to be better.

GOOOOO! Kiley!

Fear vs. Dreams

Right now, To Write Love On Her Arms is doing a "Fears vs. Dreams" campaign. Individual's are invited to answer two questions: What's your biggest fear? What's your biggest dream? By adding your words, you are giving hope to those who feel alone and maybe even lessening your own loneliness. 

Please check out the video below; then to contribute your words, click on the link above.

  

My contribution:

Biggest Fear: Failing

Biggest Dream: To heal hearts

Note: I went through a pretty dark period in my life; so,To Write Love on Her Arms is an organization that is close to my heart.  Everyone struggles with feelings of worthlessness and loneliness at some point. But it is important for you to know that you are loved. And you are unique. And you are wanted.

Reach out to someone today and share that love.

Some Days...It Just Hurts!

Hmmm? To be addressed in the future.

Wrote this about a month ago and am just now posting. 

Do they truly want to know me?

Do I think they really care?

Although they smile in my direction,

I fear they may be insincere.

On My Playlist This Month - October

1. The One You Say Goodnight to - Kina Grannis

2. Pretend - The Lights

I absolutely love this song.  I feel like the lyrics resonate well with my life at the moment.

3. Last Kiss (Taylor Swift Cover) - Boyce Avenue

This so much better than the original.

4)  Gonna Get Over You - Sara Bareilles

5) Diary of Jane (Tribute to Breaking Benjamin) - Vitamin String Quartet